December 16, 2007

More to Life

Stacie Orrico - More To Life  

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let it go

There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Trippin' out thinkin' there must be more to life
Well it's life, but I'm sure... There's gotta be more

(Than wanting more)

I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half-way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing

I'm wanting more

I'm always waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed....
Always... Always...

More to life
There's gotta be more to life (more to life)
There's gotta be more to life (more)
More to my life

                            

November 21, 2007

How to be Naked Like A Baby

... and just as happy.

November 07, 2007

To Vienna

UpAfter waiting for like forever for my visa, I finally got it issued. So, I begin my trip to Vienna for my second year of Master in Computational Logic. I booked my flight on Thursday, Nov 1st, using Lufthansa airline.
All the preparations were ready, and I went to the airport with my sister and friends accompanying me. My flight was scheduled for departure at 20.15, and we arrived at the Soekarno-Hatta airport at around 17.30, for an early check-in. I brought with me one big luggage, and two backpacks.
The check-in counter for my flight, LH 779 to Frankfurt, was in gate 1 of Terminal D-E. Since I was rescheduling for my flight (because of the visa problem), I had to pay a fee of 144USD, besides the usual fiscal tax and airport tax (Rp 1m and Rp 100th, resp.) After checking-in, and putting my luggage to the baggage belt, I returned to my sister and friends who were waiting for me outside the gate, for a final good-bye. We dine together, and took some pictures, and said good-bye for the last time, and then they left.
So it began, the trip to Vienna. This would be my second trip to Europe by myself, and so I was not as nervous as my first time (to Lisbon). After passing the passport control, I went to look for my boarding gate, D7. There, we had one more security check before boarding on to the plane. The boarding process started at 19.40, and as soon as it finishes, the plane started its trip to Singapore, the first stop, before continuing to Frankfurt.
My seat was 55A, next to last in the economy cabin of the Boeing 737-400. Beside me was a Japanese man, not much of a chatter. He only traveled up to Singapore.

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Arrived at Singapore about an hour and half later, the passengers boarded off the plane. Those who would continue the trip to Frankfurt are given a small card for identifying them. The transit at Singapore didn't take a long time, just about 45 mins, and the passengers to Frankfurt were already starting to board the plane again. During this boarding process, I had a little incident during the security check. One of my backpacks carries a dry "sambel pecel" packed in a plastic bag (yes, I DO like it that much). It was clearly my mistake that I didn't put it in my luggage. The security guy took it out, and examined it. Although it was dried, it still had some oil liquid dripping of it. I tried to explain it to him that it was just some traditional food-spices from Indonesia, but he seemed not to care. Based on the new rules for flight, no unidentified liquid is to be allowed to be carried on planes by passengers (I heard there was a terrorist attack on a plane using liquid explosive, sometime ago).
So he dumped it. I can only say in my head, that the only danger it could have had, is that if eat it too much, you'll get stomach ache. So shame...

Okay, so anyway, the plane took off, to Frankfurt, with a trip of about 18hrs long, but which felt like much more than that. I used to have a nice and exciting feeling about flying, especially during my first experiences of traveling by plane (back when I was still in high school). But, this time, I could only wish that the plane arrived at the destination as soon as possible, safely.

Up2We arrived at 5.30, Frankfurt time, and I have to catch the plane to Vienna, scheduled at 9.10. Still quite a lot of time, I thought.

I had been at Frankfurt before, for the transit to Lisbon, last year. So, more or less, I knew the procedure of transiting there. First, we have to go pass a passport control (for flights from/to outside of Europe), then a security check, then we need to find our departure gate, written on the boarding pass and/or on the information displays, available throughout the airport.

Passport control was easy, my visa is a Schengen (D+C) visa, and the officer let me pass immediately. Unlike previously, when I was traveling to Lisbon. At that time, I had only a D-type visa for Portugal only. The officer won't let me pass easily, and had to do a further checks for about 15 minutes before letting me go.

On to the security checks, I had no problem at all. Just the usual checks on the bags and body, and a further check for my laptop. This is new for me. I have had several trips by plane with a laptop on my bag, but this was the first time I had my laptop examined. They brought me to a room, where they have some kind of magnetic chips, which they used to detect the inside of my laptop, without taking it apart.
No problem here.

El From here, I have to find my departure gate. On my boarding pass (given during check-in at Soekarno-Hatta) it was written to be A42. No information about my flight is written on the info displays yet. But I was thinking, since it is written in the boarding pass already, why not just go there now, so I can wait and rest there. Since I arrived at terminal B, I had to walk from terminal B to terminal A, which is quite far. I passed through several gates, inside a tunnel, went up two floors using an elevator, walked again till the end of the hall. It turned out that A42 is the last gate on of the branches of terminal A. The other branch goes for A51-55. I figured the walk to be about 2km away.

Up3_1Reaching A42, I was surprised since what was written there on the boarding display was not my flight, LH 3530 to Vienna, but instead a flight to Brussel. Ahhh... so this must be a mistake. It was 7.30 already and there can't be another boarding again on 9. If so, then this means I have to wait for the info displays to give the details on my flight.

8.00, and still no info on my flight. I took some rest. I bought some water and ate some bread, and took some pictures. I waited near A42, hoping that my flight's departure gate will still be in terminal A, and not B, since that means I would have to go back all the way to terminal B. It can't be D, E or the others, cause, as far as I know, LH always gets terminal A or B.

8.15, still nothing.

Finally, 8.30, there it was. Flight LH 3530 to Vienna, scheduled at 9.10, boarding will start at 8.40, at gate B7.

Yes of course, what else could it be.

I took a deep breath, looked at the airport map, and start to walk to B7. I was tired, sleepy, and with 2 backpacks totaling of about 10kg, the walk back to terminal B was quite absorbing. On B7, while waiting for the boarding, a man, looking definitely Asian, said hi to me. He asked whether I was a Philippines. So he is from the Philippines. I told him that I am Indonesian, and we chatting quite a bit, about how he used to travel around Indonesia. He said works at Lufthansa in the Philippines, but currently in vacation with his wive to Vienna. Further, he said, most of Lufthansa's employees have a special right to travel with Lufthansa at a reduced price, as long as there is an empty seat.

The boarding process was quite fast, since it's a smaller plane. The passengers where taken from the gate to the plane with a transport bus. On the bus I saw some guys, definitely South East Asian, but perhaps not Indonesian. Maybe Philippines also. But as soon as they chatted, I knew right away. They were speaking in Javanese, my mother language. So I greeted them, introduce myself, and asked where they were going. They said they were going to Praha, for some work-related business, but had to fly to Vienna and continue by train. On the plane, they were sitting on the row right in front of me, about 6 guys. But I didn't talked a lot with them since they were speaking among themselves and I did not want to interrupt.


It was a short flight, from Frankfurt to Vienna, just a little more than an hour. Approaching Vienna, from above I could see fields in squares and rivers, with only one or two groups of houses here and there, and some lines of roads. Well, what do you know, this is not what I expected. I thought since Austria is a small country in Europe, the land must be filled with houses, building and apartments, if not roads.

Up4 Upon arriving at Vienna airport, I went directly to baggage claims. Of course, there were no more passport checks, since the flight was from inside Europe. I found the belt for our flight, and the group of Indonesian guys was also there waiting for their luggages. After waiting for about half an hour, with no bags showing up on the belt, we started to wonder. Is there any problems with our bags?

Luckily enough, a man with his baggages, passing us, exclaimed, "Its over there... they put it in the first belt". Aha....that explains. So they put it in another belt with a sign not of our flight. The passengers of LH 3530 grunted but also relieved, that the bags were there. I picked up my luggage, and said good-bye and good-luck to the Indonesian guys.

Before leaving to Vienna, I have already had my friend, Yansen, who is already in Vienna, to pick me up. He told me to take the Vienna U-Bahn line from the airport to LandStrasse station, and he will pick me up there. My cellphone is not active, and I cannot find any public phone there, so I could not contact him. One way or another, I have to get to LandStrasse, and hoping to meet him there.

Not knowing anything about Vienna transportation system, I tried to find my way to the underground line, which, it turned out, passes directly under the airport. Going down several stairs, I reached the underground train station. I bought one ticket to Vienna, from a ticket machine. From several types of ticket offered, I picked the one which most likely to be the ticket I needed, but I wasn't sure. There were several tracks, and I saw no signs and no information office to ask for. I just sit there, waiting and trying to ask someone for some direction.

A minute later, a women, about 30yrs old, sat right next to me. She looked like a nice person, so I tried to ask her for the direction to Landstrasse. She responded quite nicely, and she said she was going to LandStrasse herself. She agreed to accompany me and show me directions. Huh... a relief.

We introduced ourselves to each other. Her name is Elizabeth, but she likes to be called Liz. She work at Frankfurt, and was in holiday for the weekend in Vienna. Soon enough, the train arrived, and she help me to the train. We chatted quite a bit during the trip which lasted for like 20mins. She told me that she's from Mexico, has a job in Frankfurt and has lived there for more than 2yrs, and how she liked snow. She told how she was amazed, on seeing snow for the first time in her life, while she was working in Frankfurt. She told me that she said to her co-workers, I am going to stop working for just 2hours, to enjoy the snow... just looking it like that. Of course, her co-workers (most of which are Germans themselves) responded coldly.

So, the trip to LandStrasse was quite enjoyable, having her accompanying me. We chatted quite a bit a bout her experiences in Frankfurt and Vienna. In about 20 mins later we arrived at LandStrasse. We hopped off the train, and tried to find Yansen. We couldn't find him by the platforms, so we headed up to the station's upper building. There, still we couldn't find him, after looking around for sometime. I started to get to worry, and I didn't feel very comfortable to ask to help me find Yansen. But yet, she insisted on helping me till I could find him.
So, I then I had an idea, why not try to find a public phone and call him. We found one, but it required something like a magnetic card, maybe ATM or perhaps a special card. She ask a woman standing nearby (in German), whether there's a coin pay phone around. Instead of showing us a public pay phone, the woman offered us instead, to use her cellphone. If it is a local Austrian number we are dialing to, she said, it won't take a lot. So, we borrowed the woman's cellphone, and I called Yansen.
Just as I thought, he was already there, we just missed him when we got off the train. I told him to meet by the flower shop near the place where we were standing.
Turns out that, the woman speaks Spanish. Maybe a Spanish herself. Liz spoke some words of gratitude (in Spanish) to the woman, and after saying "Muchos gracias", we head to the flower shop.
Just a minute later Yansen showed up. I introduce him to Liz, and said my gratitude and farewell to her. And then she left. What a nice person she was. Traveling to new places, will never be difficult if everyone was like her. I can't thank her enough.
So, meeting Yansen, I felt safe and relieved. He explain to me a bit about Vienna Transportation system (I will write about this later, stay tuned), as we head to a ticket machine. He told me to buy a "Monatsmarke" (monthly ticket), of about 46 euros, which can be used on all five Vienna lines for a month. We started our journey using the Vienna U-bahn line to Floridsdorf, and then continued with a Strassenbahn to my hostel, Studentenzentrum Donaufelder, at DonaufelderStrasse, a street in the northeast part of Vienna. The trip took about 30 minutes.
Arriving at the hostel, I rest myself for a while. I still need to do some stuff before I can really rest. I needed to buy some stuffs, especially food for tonight, since it was already quite late in the afternoon.
So, that was it, the long trip to Vienna. Exhausting, but I am glad I finally made it here.
Next time, I'll write about the first days in Vienna, when I walked and took some pictures around my hostel and some surrounding areas. Ciao!

July 09, 2007

Working my A(**) out!

Wow!... such long time since my last blog. Right now, I am in the final stages of my study here in Portugal. Almost finished all of my final evaluation. 'Just' some final projects still stuck. Well,.. I should not have used the word 'just' anyway...

I have three projects in one of the courses, mainly concerning with some specialized Prolog (XSB and CxProlog). I have always feel that implementation is my weakest point. When trying to understand some concept/theory, mostly I can manage with little trouble, but when it comes to the minute details of the implementation, I'm lost easily.
Now, I have to say that I am starting to get worried, since the deadline is closing in. I am planning to return on the 25th of July, and I am still stuck. Oh well, let's just see what will happen... Que será será...

One good thing I must be thankful for is that I have gotten nice marks for some other courses. Pretty sure I will get an A, at least, finally.. sighhh :-) Anyway, can't wait to go back home, enjoying the summer holiday with family and friends...

Edit: Wiks!... baru nyadar kalo sekarang udah 'live' di Planet Ilkomerz 37. Congrats buat Asep yg udah mempelopori... Yang lainnya buruan gabung!!
O iya, buat temen2 yg kebetulan ada di Bogor tgl 25 juli - 5 agustus, ketemuan donk...makan2 dijamin :-)....

Buat Dirga: He-eh nih... males banget ya nge-blog, sibuk mulu ... btw daftarin jg punya lu donk...

November 03, 2006

Ubuntu for Laptop

Screenshot_1 Like I said, I have bought a new laptop, an Asus Z92J with Intel Duo T2400 1.83 GHz, 100GB of hard drive, 1024MB RAM, ATI Radeon X1600 and DVD+RW, among others.
Its working just right,  I haven't found any problems or malfunctioned parts, yet.... (well eventually it will I'm sure, like any other machines.. but hopefully not anytime soon).
Only thing I'm not really satisfied is that it has this Portuguese keyboard layout and I had to reset it to english layout (because I'm already accustomed with english layout), with the consequence of having to be able to remember the location of each key in english layout. For example: using this keyboard, I actually have to press the key with ':' character to get the '>' character, which is a bit annoying to me. Worse is when you want to type the '(' character, I actually have to press the ')' character, something that I still get confused very often. But well, I'll get used to it... If you look at the bright side, we can think of it as a kind of souvenir  from this country, something you cannot get at other places,..  :)
One other thing is that it comes with Windows Media Center (or something like that) version of Windows XP, which is completely in (guest what ?) Portuguese! So you'd get something like Iniciar instead of the familiar Start button. And everything else.... completely in Portuguese.
Fortunately, I have been used to using Linux for some time now, and the first thing I did was to grab and Install Ubuntu, so I can have English interface (or perhaps even Indonesian?) on my laptop. Initially, I installed Ubuntu 5.10 (Breezy) and gave it a try. I didnt really like it because the desktop style and look was not very interesting . Ubuntu uses Gnome, while I have prefered KDE (mainly with SUSE and Mandriva/ex-Mandrake), which for me, has a better look and style. So, I opened up Kubuntu website, and place a request for some free Kubuntu 6.06 CDs. Not long afterwards, the CDs arrived and I installed it immediately.
Kubuntu has a nicer look, to some extent, compared to the Ubuntu Breezy, but I had some problems with some of my hardware that it cannot recognized them properly. For instance, it cannot play well with my wireless card, for some reasons I dont really know.
Then I thought, perhaps the 'original' Ubuntu, could be better on this, so I replaced it again with Ubuntu, but this time with the newer Ubuntu 6.06 Dapper, which I got from my friend.
The moment I installed it, it was working really well. It could detect my wireless card automatically and connect me with the Internet connection quite easily. I had to use wpa_supplicant to make the wireless connection in my residence because the wireless connection is configured to have WPA aunthentication method, but luckily the administrator has given complete guide of how to set this up.
So, now I've been using it to browse the Internet (writing this blog), downloading, chatting, editing documents, playing music and movies, even playing games occasionally, without many problems. Better yet, after some tweaking and some installing some accessories, my desktop now looks really nice and cool. It has 3D desktop switching tool, nice little applets on the desktops and a comfortable 1280x800 resolution which really makes me enjoy using it.
My previous impression on GNOME now has completely gone. It turns out that it too can be really nice-looking and made 'cool' with catchy accessories apps. Best of all, it is really usable and comfortable. I have even less reason to to boot to Windows (not to say I will never use it, of course).
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Now I am trying to install AIGLX and Compiz, one of the latest additions to X server, that will enable many 3D effects on desktop applications. Just to satisfy my curiosity.
Anyway, Ubuntu is great. Not surprising that have been the most popular distros recently.
I would recommend it to anyone wanting to try Linux for the first time.

To blog or not to blog?

Img_0001 Been some while since I have time to do blogging.. Heck, its been months now!
Just couldnt find the time....
So many things has happened, many things have changed.
I have been studying for my CL master at FCT, UNL for about 2 months now,... Oh so many new experiences, I can't describe them all to you.
First of all, many things happened during the trip to Lisbon. I will tell you my story on my trip on a separate thread.
My campus is located at Caparica district of Almada, a municipality located just south of Lisbon, across the Tagus river (Rio Tejo), on the eastern side of the 25th April Bridge (Ponte 25 de Abril) .
I live on a residence near the campus, 10 mnts away. It's a nice place, calm and peace. A bit away from the crowd's and rush'es of the city, and it has a 24/7 internet connection (a  quite fast one) though using wireless connection. Well, actually its not really the best place here, since its located a bit deserted away from surrounding civilization. This is why some of my friends dont really like it here. They sometimes call it a prison, cause you cant go anywhere here,.. well technically you can, but you have nowhere to go....no shopping mall around, big stores, and everything you expect to have in a city. For me its okay, I dont really like going and walking to such places anyway.
Anyway, now that I have some more time to spend, constant Internet connection, a laptop (yeah, finally...), and lots of  (I believe) interesting experiences, I wanna spend some more time to blog. Anyone want to know about experiences I have (and will have) here, are welcomed to read and comment.
Thats all for now, see ya all...

November 26, 2005

Alone...

Alone in the campusss... 21:21 PM.. lots of work :-(

This semester is a hard work for me. But I'm happy...

Oh, well. This is life....

I'm listening to Atomic Kitten, Eternal Flame dan No One Loves You....
Great tunes to listen at these moments...

September 13, 2005

Down...

Cloudimissyou2I dont go to campuss today, even tough I know, I had a lot of things to take care of. I'm Ill... :-(
I threw up this morning... my head is spinning *&^%$#@ ..............

For a few days lately, life seemed to be running so fast, I cant follow its pace...
A lot of agenda running at work, I had to work on several things in parallel.. Phiuff ..
I got some personal things I had to deal myself....
And i know i dissapoint some poeple... I'm sorry.
Some expect me to finish things as quickly as possible, optimizing every seconds I have...
Another person,... well,..... just expects me to give more attention and time for her... :-(
Today,  I got ill and got behind my schedule even more..... but i'll strive not to dissapoint any one any more....
At these moments, i really miss those moments with someone who can always make my days joyful, and cheer me up when i'm down...Haven't seen her for quite some times now... and with my body getting sick, i really feel in need of her present..
When she said she couldn't come, the need just kept getting stronger.... I miss u.
I just want u to know that..

August 13, 2005

Newton's Apple

AppleWe've all heard the story... If you haven't, let me tell you. One day, Isaac Newton was walking in an apple field. He was thinking about the nature, the rules that govern it, and how we might be able to understand them. Somehow he got tired and slept under one of the apple trees. Then suddenly an apple just fell right on his head. He woke up and realize that an apple just hit him in the head. It made him think for a while, why that apple fell on to him, what law(s) could possibly be working behind it, and then....well the rest is history. He formulated the universal law of gravity, which remained unchallenged untill the early 20th century, when Einstein presented his general theory of relativity.
What was amazing is that, apple is something we commonly see in our life. An apple falling from its tree is something we normally take for granted. Its the way we are 'thought' during our life. That every thing must fall from a certain height to the ground, not the other way around or something else.
What made the apple that hit Newton's head so special? Has there never been anyone got hit by an apple in his/her head before him? Then why should he be the one who formulated the gravity law out of this little and unimportant accident ? (some of you might yell: "hey.... that story was just a legend dude..."  Okay, but that's not the point right now..)
Sometimes, in the course of our lives, we encounter those certain moments when we got 'hit by an apple', and realize something we have never realize or know of before. We might got hit by an apple that makes us understand our weakness, we might got hit by an apple that reminds us to be more passionate to others etc. There are apples that remind us of what friendship should be, there are apples that remind us of how important our family are, etc.

These moments of 'got hit by an apple' can be joyful, painfull, revelating, or even scary perhaps. (F=m.a, said Mr. Newton. The bigger the apple, and the faster it hit you, the more pain you will feel.)
But the more I think of it, I concluded that these are what makes us learn. Learn what life should be and  what life has turned out to be. Learn what to value and what to leave. So it is something we should be grateful of, despite the pains. It's the lessons that we should keep.

Still, an apple is an apple. It takes the right frame of mind and willingness to pay attention, as in the case of Newton's apple, to make it worthwile. Thousands of apples may hit you, but if you are being ignorant, then.....
I just hope that I will have the ability to understand any lessons from the apples I (will) encounter in my life.
So, apple everyone.... ??

July 19, 2005

The Matrix Symbolism

MatrixFollowing my previous post about The Matrix.
As I said, the saga has a rich content of symbolism in almost every aspect of the movies, games and anime. Some of the most obvious ones are the names: they, almost every one of them, are names with certain philosophical meanings and/or  have historical roots.
This is an excerpt from http://www.thematrix101.com/matrix/symbolism.php  :

Matrix in the dictionary refers to "a situation or surrounding substance within which something else originates, develops, or is contained. The womb." Additionally, the concept of the Matrix as an illusion or a 'construct' that humans are unaware of resembles the idea of Samsara in Buddhism and Hinduism. Samsara teaches that the world we consider 'real' is actually a projection of our own desires. From Morpheus Neo learns that how he'd perceived himself in the Matrix was simply a "the mental projection of your digital self." The "real" sensory world "is simply electrical signals interpreted by your brain."

Neo in latin means new. It's also an anagram of "one". Thomas Anderson, Neo's given name relates to 'doubting Thomas' in the bible when he doesn't believe he is the One. Anderson means 'son of man' which is a messianic title.

The Oracle in greek history was an intermediary between god and man. People could ask an Oracle questions and get an answer, sometimes in a riddle format that often wouldn't make sense until later. In the Matrix she says, "You know what that means? It's Latin. Means know thyself." "Know thyself" is inscribed upon the Oracle of Apollo and attributed to the Delphic Oracle, Greece, 6th century B.C.

            
Trinity represents the number three which is a powerful number in many stories and traditions. In keeping with the Christian themes, the 'father', 'son', 'holy spirit' seems to be related here. In The Matrix, Morpheus, Trinity, and Neo fight the machines.

Morpheus means the fashioner or molder, because of the shapes he calls up before the sleeper, in classical mythology. He is the god of dreams, which ties in with the sleep/dream theme that runs throughout the Matrix.
Cypher is the classic betrayer, the Judas Iscariot. The word refers to a mathematical symbol denoting an absence of quantity, a zero. Also, someone with no value, a nonentity. It's also potentially related to Satan (the name could be a shortened version of 'Lucifer'). Cypher also has a goatee and wears red early in The Matrix which relate to popular images of Satan.

Niobe was a female greek mythological character in the Iliad of Homer. In that epic story she is described as a woman who compares herself to a goddess.

Merovingian relates to an ancient Frankish dynasty whose members were attributed with saintliness, magical powers and divine origin because they were believed to be descendents of Christ.

Persephone was the daughter of Demeter and Zeus in Greek myth. Hades abducted her and took her to the underworld, but she was eventually allowed to return to the surface for part of the year. Her mother Demeter, in her grief neglected her duties and the earth became cold and barren, so Zeus allowed Persephone to come home for only 6 months of the year. This marked the changing of the seasons.
These are just some of the characters we found in the saga who got their names somehow related to the roles they play in the story.  If I may add:
The word  'matrix', also has a meaning in mathematics, which I'm sure you already knew, is a concept build from the arrangement of elements (numbers) on rows and columns which has certain operations defined on it. Coincedentally, this is parallel to the meaning of The Matrix in the movie, which is also an arrangement of elements (poeple's and machines' mind) connected to form a massive network which together created the matrix itself.
The Merovingian, as said the excerpt, is the name of the dynasty living in France in mideavel ages, famous for the legend surrounding them, that they're descendent of Jesus (Isa) himself, thus contradicting the deity attributed to him by the Christians. Recently, the legend got a new attention following the success of world bestseller "The Da Vinci Code", where the legend is told, that Jesus had infact, married to Maria Magdalena and had a child. The descendents later on move to France and establish the kingdom known as the Merovingian, named after the first king, Merovech.
More with these later......